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IvanaScream
I’m back home after a long trip.
Making love to my wife is going well.
Today, someone needed to take the kiddo to practice. Wife volunteered and said, you probably need some time alone.
“I do” I said, “but, I’ll probably just jerk off to porn.”
“I know,” says wife, “and that’s OK.” She smiles because she really just wants me to be happy. She know that masturbation has nothing to do with her, and porn is just an aid to it. Since I got home, I’ve done nothing but make love to Ivana frequently. So, it felt strange pleasing just one person instead of two. It also felt good, at many different levels. Of course the orgasm felt good, but I mean…it felt good to do something for myself. Start to finish, all alone…I accomplished something. That makes me feel steady, emotionally strong inside, stable, clear minded. Which makes it easier for me to study for school, and helps me be a better man.
The church really attacks masturbation and porn. In fact, I could give so many references of the church attacking porn, that I don’t really even know where to begin…but that one really ladles the guilt on. “Do you like porn? That’s because you’re a murderer.” (The irony of Dr. Dobson refusing to believe Richard Dawkins, but having no problem at all taking the words of sociopathic serial killer completely at face value is just mind boggling.) This was also a real winner, getting serious bonus points for asking “But what about the children!” in a non-ironic context and equating the stills of Playboy to child snuff films…yes, really.
There is always this “gateway drug theory” thats thrown around, and in my own life…I just don’t see it. I like exactly the same things I’ve always liked with one caveat: Alas, age is sneaking up on me. The 18-to 25 something crowd looks so terribly young to me, I find them more beautiful than erotic. I like porn because it helps me masturbate, and I like to masturbate because, like going for a bike ride, jogging, or climbing a big rock, it’s something I can do alone that takes a lot of focus, and I feel strong and sure of myself as I do it…resulting in me feeling good afterward.
Why is finding naked women beautiful and liking pleasure wrong again?
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So glad to hear you are home and enjoying time with your wife and yourself! Yay for you!
Apparently, we should only take pleasure ONLY from suffering, sacrificing, and doing “God’s” work. In my book, that means we should all be masochists!